We shout from the mountaintops so desperately wanting our voice to be heard but is it really doing anything? When we've yelled loud enough to hear the echo is our heart still the same? Is it more empty or more full?
Sometimes I shout for I feel that's what I need to do, I feel like my efforts aren't working, I feel like anything I do will never be enough. I feel like in shouting I'll be heard. But is my heart the same? Is it more empty, more full?
I know often it just feels drained, or heavy. I try to keep up with everything everyone wants me to do, with the commitments that I have, with uni, with work, with being a good friend, the list goes on and on.... and I struggle. Life is difficult sometimes, if not a lot of the time. Emotions play in especially fear and insecurity. I feel like I'm falling over my feet with the steps that I take while everyone else is running ahead.
Feeling lonely? Yeah, I do. Feel defeated? I do. Feel insecure? I do. Feel like your dreams weren't given to the right person cause you aren't good enough to fulfill them? Yeah that's certainly me to.
It's hard climbing up the mountain, when we can even identify the mountain is, cause I think I'm climbing one but I'm not sure what it is right now.
The depth of who we are and what we need is not found in screaming from the mountaintop, it's found in the whispers to our soul, in the quietest moments, even when the storm has passed.
Take heart in what you're going through, whether a serious storm or just having to go in to work tomorrow.
They say "life doesn't get easier, you just stronger". In me my strength doesn't lie. I don't have enough trust or strength or hope to get me through. No, that's because my strength and my hope lie in the one that loves me unconditionally.
I don't need to scream from the mountaintop to be heard, I can be heard in the simplest, smallest steps and moments of every day.